Saturday, November 16, 1985, at around 10:00 am almost became the last day of my life. On this day, 30 years ago, at twenty years old, I almost went home to be with the Lord. As I ponder the events of that Saturday morning, I am once again near tears as I think of all I have accomplished since then. I may not be where I would like to have been at this point in my life, having just celebrated my 50th birthday, but I thank God every day that He saw fit to give me another chance at life. Now, three children, (now six through marriage to the love of my life I should have never walked away from, including a lovely daughter-in-law and a soon to be son-in-law and another sister), an awesome sister-in-law who is a great wife to my brother, Alonzo (“Bud” after our late grandfather on Mom’s side), two wonderful parents-in-law, my own parents soon to celebrate their 51st wedding anniversary this November 20th, three grandsons, an Associate’s degree, two books (and more on the way, including this one which I am working on finishing now, among my other projects) later, I have come farther than I ever thought I could and I am more blessed than I could have dreamed of being at this point in my life. Now, 30 years later, I am married to the love of my life and looking forward to great things ahead!
To those of my friends and classmates, then nursing classmates, and others who were there for me at that difficult time in my life, once again, I say, thank you. You have each earned a place in my heart always. To my family, I love you all, and I say this, never doubt that God has a wonderful purpose for your life. He did for me, and He did for you, which is why He told me to go back that day, that it wasn’t my time and He wasn’t finished with me yet. Each of you is one of the reasons He sent me back that day. Never doubt that there is a reason for everything!
I was knocked unconscious with a near fatal head injury, which, as I have been told, my head actually dented the dashboard, and a fractured pelvis which left me on a walker for a little over a month. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and at that point in time, left with little hope of ever accomplishing much. But I have gone on to prove that, through Christ’s ever healing and renewing strength, anything is possible. As my mother always made us quote every time she caught us saying, “I can’t…”, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” – Philippians 4:13.
One of the analogies God has given me over the years as I have walked the long road to my recovery and healing is to think of your life this way: Imagine you are sitting in a boat. With all the stress, anxiety, and discouragement prevalent in the times we are living in now, it is all too easy to want to just give up, and I have seen many people reach that point. But, just think of it this way. All of the people you will eventually reach for Christ are in that boat with you. Your children (or future children) are in that boat with you. If you “pull the plug”, or give up, and choose to let your boat “sink”, all of those people, and all of those you would have eventually helped or encouraged in some way, are in that boat with you, and all of them will go down with you. Like “Jack” says to “Rose” in the Titanic movie, “You jump, I jump”.
I did not need CPR that day, as I was sent back before the rescue squad arrived, but in the months and years to come, as I cried out to God from the pit of despair I found myself in, He heard my cry and lifted me up out of that pit. (See Psalm 40, which I make reference to frequently in the book, “CPR For Your Faith, Resuscitating the Christian Heart (Yes, Your Ship is Coming In!)” God heard my 911 call of distress and He performed CPR on my weakened heart and restored my faith, just as He will yours. All you have to do is ask, and this is the main message of the book. I know a lot has gone on in my life lately, but I am working on finishing the book soon. So, if you want to be sure to not miss out on getting your copy, be sure to subscribe to my email, so you can be sure to get an email once it’s published!
Now, for you here once again, I will share the testimony of my near death experience from the accident that morning of November. May He strengthen your faith as He has mine! With all the blessings in my life, I am so thankful that He said to me that day, “No, go back. It’s not your time yet. I’m not finished with you yet. Go back!” The love of my life is thankful for that as well. We are like “Noah and Allie” in “The Notebook”, only 30 + years instead of 7! I love you, baby! To the next 30 years!